As per usual, my thought process is working with ideas of mortality, fate, fear and religion. Although not the fear of religion mind, though I thought abut this too. I am separating some ideas for my sketches/ drawings whatever you want to call them, it still sounds like I'm doing crayola drawings with the tacky and easily breakable (and edible so I've been told) wax crayons. Anyway, my current two themes are developing ideas for monstrous and deformed human beings, I am a fan of horror films, the Silent Hill series and how they come to created these abused looking human creatures. Human beings for this theme, essentially as i want to work with the ideas of Sin and Fear, i believe the understanding of these two things is better expressed by human beings rather than animals. The second theme is working with the ideas of "Are we alone in the Universe" and the existence of the grand after life; Heaven, Hell, Limbo and the inhabitants; Angels, Demons and Lost souls. I have been researching a few artists, but mainly I have been looking through various written sources on such matters, such as articles on Demonology and the Classification of Angels. With the former idea, I have been looking into the origin or Sin and will try and delve further into it, somewhere along the line I plan to research into behavioural psychology, hoping to gain an understanding of mental illness or degeneration, in order to assist my ideas of monstrous, sinful human beings, as I believe that this will help with creating an interesting image if I can try and explain, through drawing, the feelings inside. Perhaps not even to drawn "Sin-Stained Souls" but perhaps these creatures can come of psychological problems.
Plenty of things ticking round in my head, just need to find some credited artists (because its part of the curriculum, rather than me wanting someones work influencing and destroying fresh ideas but never mind that) so that I can perhaps, develop some new ideas from the existing ones. My aim for the rest of the year is to try and develop various bits of work and see where I want to take it, perhaps I will return to 3D sculpting, at this particular moment, Saturday afternoon, I can not figure out where I'm going to be in 3 months time.
Saturday, 17 April 2010
Over Easter I have found myself a new job at a residential home. As I have found with a similar job to this, it starts to make my mind tick away. Fear, of ending up in such a place, as to me, at the end of the day I can go home, I'm not trapped. I heard someone liken it to being like an open prison, or an asylum. The fear of entrapment, aging, dying (of course, inevitable) losing control and embarrassment. Reflecting on ones life and thinking, did I do a good job? Those things I cannot change, would I really have changed them? This lead me to think about destiny and the people we meet, is choice a real existing force when everything we know is an interpretation of the world through our senses? These things can not be trusted, yet we let them and some of us believe it fate, the wheel of destiny or God. Are we a random happening of accidental encounters and events, or is there a grand scheme, the age old question. As you can tell, I tend to think a lot about things I and others will never know the answer to. A lot has happened over this Easter term and has got me thinking again and trying to incorporate this into my practising work (currently 2D fantasy style artworks) where these paths lead is unknown to me, I guess i must leave some decisions down to the unseen force we call fate and when the option to make a choice arrives once more, I'll try and figure out the best plan of action or at least make a decision and try not to regret it. All this thought on a Saturday afternoon.